hold on

i was never a fan of country music, even when taylor swift made it big with her hit songs such as love story, white horse and teardrops on my guitar. it's a bit too odd for my taste and yet i found myself falling in love with this genre of music when i first listened to this particular song called hold on by kareem salama few months ago.

i would like to dedicate this post to my dearest mother again!, who is in dire need of her favorite daughter to be home as soon as possible. :P

The teardrops fall from his eyes at night
Too much a man to be crying in plain sight
Finds himself at the beginning again
Can't understand why he can't break this sin

I don't know who said that it was easy
To conquer the world that exists inside of me
My lights are dim and the roads are dark
But the night's always darkest just before dawn

So hold on in this moment 'cause it might be just what you need
And you know that you're growing when you find yourself down on your knees
It's the trials of life, it's the rain and the light that make you more than just your dreams

She's like a boat that's caught in the storm
Sees the sun through the clouds but she can't stay warm
Now she's in pain and she can't bear the load
But she don't know there's something better down the road

Everything life is born then it dies
After the storms the rooted plants do rise
So let pain die and plant yourself deep
'Till this whole wide world falls down at your feet

So hold on in this moment 'cause it might be just what you need
And you know that you're growing when you find yourself down on your knees
It's the trials of life, it's the rain and the light that make you more than just your dreams

You say that you want to fly in the sky, but you won't build the wings; it won't be
Then, you say that you want the love of your life, but you give up too easily
It's the eyes wide as you fall that make you see

So hold on in this moment 'cause it might be just what you need
And you know that you're growing when you find yourself down on your knees
It's the trials of life, it's the rain and the light that make you more than just your dreams

i know you're strong enough to get over this phase so please keep holding on. i'll see you near the finishing line and then we'll cross that ribbon together, alright? love you always, mom! :)

mama, i love you!

petang tadi, aku bukak ym. borak2 dengan si nadhrah pasal exam praktikal semalam. alhamdulillah, dapat tiupan semangat daripada beliau untuk terus berusaha menggapai kejayaan selagi masih ada masa. terima kasih, kakakku! :) sebelum sempat aku offline untuk sambung baca buku praktikal biochem konon nye la kan~, dapat satu mass message daripada si ina tentang seorang sahabat sekuliah kami yang kehilangan ibunya malam semalam.

tercengang aku.

terus aku online facebook, cari profile page dia dan ucapkan takziah atas kehilangan beliau. sepanjang petang tadi, aku terfikirkan keadaan si dia. bagaimana agaknya dia? sudahlah sekarang ini merupakan musim kemuncak di mana satu kesalahan kecil pun boleh mengundang rasa stress yang melampau, ditambah pula dengan ujian berat sebegini. ujian yang cukup hebat sehingga mampu melemahkan semangat yang sebelum ini berkobar2 untuk menghadapi final exams di akhir jun nanti.

i tried picturing myself in his shoes and i simply cannot imagine what i would do if i were to be the one to receive such devastating news. would i book the next available flight ticket and demand to go back home despite the fact that i'm having my practical exams now? cry endlessly until my eyes go red? throw a childish tantrum? or retreat into a severe depression and isolate myself from the society?

it might seem exaggerated but i do not doubt any of the above possibilities if i were to lose my mother or any members of my family during these hard times.

sungguh, Allah takkan uji seseorang itu jika dia tak mampu nak hadapi ujian tersebut. [1:286]

nota kaki 1: kepada sahabatku, semoga Allah kurniakan kau ketabahan dan kekuatan.

nota kaki 2: mother dearest, i love you very, very much and i shall spend the rest of my life saying and proving that to you.

she used to be my only enemy and never let me free,
catching me in places that know i shouldn't be,
every other day i crossed the line,
i didn't mean to be so bad,
i never thought you would
become the friend i never had

back then i didn't know why,
why you were misunderstood,
so now i see through your eyes,
all that you did was love,
mama i love you, mama i care,
mama i love you, mama my friend,
my friend

i didn't want to hear it then but
i'm not ashamed to say it now,
every little thing you said and did was right for me,
i had a lot of time to think about,
about the way i used to be,
never had a sense of my responsibility.

back then i didn't know why,
why you were misunderstood,
so now i see through your eyes,
all that you did was love,
mama i love you, mama i care,
mama i love you, mama my friend,
my friend

mama i love you, mama i care,
mama i love you, mama my friend,
you're my friend~

the proposal

i was re-watching 'the proposal' last night, a 2009 romantic comedy film starring ryan reynolds & sandra bullock, when i found my ideal proposal words and my latest favorite quote so far.

will you marry me?

because i'd like to date you.
(^_________^)

teheee~ =D
will explain more later.

tawakal

tadi ada exam praktikal anatomy untuk pelajar perubatan tahun 2 ASU
sampai di kuliah pukul 9.00 pagi
mula peperiksaan pukul 9.30 pagi
peperiksaan tamat pada pukul 10.15 pagi
sampai di rumah pukul 11.00 pagi
pukul 11.30 pagi makan tengah hari di cafe

daku kecewa :(
banyaknya jawapan salah~~
(T______________________T)
sudah, sudah!
kau dah usaha, bukan?
maka serahkan segalanya kepada si DIA
insyaAllah, kita semua berjaya di dunia dan akhirat

do your best and let Allah do the rest!

Umma United sebagai alternatif FB! :)

dah banyak cerita-ceriti kita dengar pasal facebook.
controversi yang berbagai-bagai~ macam2 ada wooo~~
haram? halal? harus? makhruh?
entahlah~
yang penting kita perlu buat sesuatu tentang ini.
boikot facebook?
macam tak sanggup nak tinggal my non-existant social life disini~ sobsob (T.T)
kembali ke friendster, myspace, hi5 ataupun tagged?
alamak, kalau tak formal tak bestlah. pening memikirkan nickname orang lain @ diri sendiri yang pelik2~
atau pergi serbu website terbaru ini, umma united?
ohoh~ macam seronok aje. eh bukan, memang best pon!

mari join! :)

p/s: baru join 1 minit dan sedang kalut berjalan2 di website tersebut, sudah ada banyak friend request dari kawan2 lain yang sama fikrah. hebatnya Allah bilamana Dia mahu menolong kita berukhuwwah! :)

p/s: klik sini kalau mahu tahu dengan lebih lanjut tentang CEO & co-founder website ini. may Allah bless him =]

tagged by sarah :)

it's been a while since i've done any tags, not that i have gotten many of them. i was bored out of my mind so might as well do this while waiting for my study mood to return. :)


1) Adakah anda happy sekarang?
not really. my mood is neutral. :|


2) Kenapa anda happy?
happy bagus untuk semua orang


3) Apakah benda yang boleh membuat anda happy?
- gayut dengan mak/abah
- photografi
- tengok cerita lawak
- main basketball/berbasikal
- berenang di laut/kolam renang
- baca buku motivasi

4) Pernahkan anda menerima tag?
yup


5) Nyatakan warna yang anda suka.

biru itu sejuk :)

6) Berikan 9 orang yang anda mahu tag. Sila beritahu kepada orang yang anda mahu tag supaya dapat respond.

- ADIBAH
- NUAR
- INN
- SAKINAH
- PIKA
- ALISA
- ARIFF
- HAZWAN
- IZZATI

7) Nyatakan sesuatu tentang orang yang anda tag. Nak tulis panjang berjela pun takpe, asalkan anda happy.

- DBA - classmate masa form 4 & 5. dia kuat ponteng kelas masa akhir2 form 4 dan awal2 form 5 disebabkan sesuatu yang tidak dapat dielakkan. alhamdulillah, sekarang sudah semakin ok dan ceria. merupakan pengawas perpustakaan yang garang dan berdedikasi. semoga berjaya menjadi DOC jugak, awak! :)

- NUAR - full name is anwar bin noor azam. partner untuk english dan lain2 subjek semasa di intec dahulu. masih lagi rasa bersalah terhadap beliau sebab terlampau sombong dengannya pada waktu itu. haha~ :P

- INN - farihin azid. budak sabah yang coolio gila. suka baca blog dia masa aku tengah emo sebab dia pandai bermain kata2 dalam english. :)

- SAKINAH - has been my classmate in ain syams university (ASU) for 2 years now. budak nogori yang sporting. suka tengok gaya beliau yang sangat sempoi~

- PIKA - kenalan dari sekolah rendah sampai sekolah menengah. comel orangnya, sangat ceria dan selalu cuba menggembirakan orang lain. :)

- LISA - ex-classmate form 4 & form 5 jugak. budak terengganu yang cakap laju. nasib baik la aku paham ape yang dia selalu bebelkan. guardian angel untuk sac-chin ku yang berada di usm sekarang ni. :)

- ARIFF - peminat setia kereta beemer bapaku. pernah berselisihan faham dengan beliau semasa menerajui KRS dahulu kala but it's all in the past so we're okay now, right? :)

- HAZWAN - pernah bergaduh jugak dengan mamat ni about everything in the world but we're civilized people, aren't we? :)

- ZATI - budak yang matang dan tidak cepat melatah. anda semakin jarang update blog nampak gayanya~ :P

8) Ni soalan cepu emas nieh. Adakah anda happy dengan apa yang anda ada?
yes. i'm extremely grateful for all the things in my life (^______^)

si tukang masak kecik

waktu bulan puasa tahun 2009 lepas, akulah chef baru kat rumah, menggantikan ibuku yang sibuk bertapa di qua hiraq di kl. *so, dearest mother, you better get that title of yours or else! ;)* tepat pukul 6 petang, aku dah mula bertukang kat dapur tu. penat gile kot rushing bagai nak rak siapkan makanan! baru aku tau feeling mak aku camne time dia memasak. huhu~

selain diriku, aku ada jugak merekrut beberapa budak kecil yang sangat berbakat dalam bidang masak-masak neh untuk menjadi penolongku di dapur. memperkenalkan~

fariz iqmal bin muhammad
9 tahun
seorang yang blur-blur & totally lost in his own world

fariz izzwan bin muhammad
7 tahun
seorang yang tak tahu bila nak berhenti bercakap

farah nadia binti muhammad
4 tahun
seorang yang sangat demand dan suka menjerit

menu buka puasa kami tiap-tiap hari mesti ada kuih buah melaka. kalau takde, mau nye si nadia ni menjerit nak kuih tu. bukannye dy makan pon, saje je nak ada kuih tu atas meja. suka sangat dia time aku tengah buat buat kuih melaka atau lebih dikenali oleh si nadia sebagai kuih pusing-pusing. ahaks~


nota kaki: sedang homesick. wish i had spend more quality time with you guys. abah mi, doakan akak kat sini yerp.

for you: encik ikram

nama dia fariz ikhram bin muhammad
dia ialah dik lelaki aku yang kedua
hari ini merupakah hari jadi dia yang ke-15
budak ini dicampak ke sekolah smkap muadzam shah
so aku jarang2 jumpa dengan dia
dengar cerita saham dia naik dengan mendadak sekarang
namun begitu kesahihan berita tersebut masih lagi diragui :P
all the best for your pmr this year, little brother!
:)